It Really Is About The Journey . . .

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God is within her, she will not fail; God will help her at break of day.

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Collage of speakers and some of the attendees.

Psalm 46:5 (NIV)

“So, how’d it go?” my friend asked with wide-eyed enthusiasm. We both had events to happen the weekend of November 7 – she hosted her younger sister’s first baby shower, and I hosted my first women’s conference.

“It was amazing,” I started. “It far exceeded my expectations.”

The truth is my faith waivered the entire journey.

The. Entire. Journey.

Leading up to the actual event, I probably cried about once twice a day. At first they were tears of uncertainty. For a long time I felt like I was swimming in the depths of the ocean, I was full of fear. I thought I had nothing on which to anchor. I thought, maybe God did not give me the vision to start the Faith.Hope.Love. Mom Conference. Maybe I concocted the whole ding-dang thing, and I heard what I wanted to hear and not what He called me to do.

The tears then morphed into disappointed tears because I took a leap of faith and did something that I would NEVER do: I asked other people for help. I heard the word “no” too many times to count in the past ten months – I lost track after about the millionth time. I diligently called, emailed, Skyped and physically met with dozens of companies and people across Georgia and was turned down again and again and again.

It’s funny now but I realized toward the end of my journey that fear was going to be there regardless. It wasn’t something I could easily get rid of, fear would have to come along; I just couldn’t let it dictate how I operated my life. And the disappointment, well that comes with the territory. As a writer, you hear no a lot, I mean a lot because maybe the timing is off, or there’s no budget to support your project, or they’re just genuinely not interested, and that’s okay. I took the rejections personally, and I shouldn’t have. I felt like they were saying no to me, but they weren’t.

The woman-owned business or centric organizations that supported the inaugural event.

The woman-owned business or women-centric organizations that supported the inaugural event.

Truth?

My asks were misplaced. It wasn’t about reaching out to people and companies for help; it was about re-training me to turn to Him for my needs.

All of them.

When I realized that, my dialogue changed, I was no longer asking for help and my self-worth, my identity, my wanting to be brave was not tied to their response. Brene Brown says in Rising Strong that, “the most dangerous stories we make up are the narratives that diminish our inherent worthiness. We must reclaim the truth about our lovability, divinity, and creativity.”

I didn’t need their validation. I was on a mission from God, and that was enough.

And “no” eventually turned to “yes” – just enough of them. I aligned myself with several woman-owned businesses that sold their wares, and either discounted or volunteered their services.

Me (turquoise shirt) surrounded by the 2015 speakers and host. L to R, Diana Watley, Dr. Maria Barnes, Egypt Sherrod, me, Kendra Morman (host), Dr. Roxanne Donovan. Missing Tracy Nicole.

Me (turquoise shirt) surrounded by the 2015 speakers and host. L to R, Diana Watley, Dr. Maria Barnes, Egypt Sherrod, me, Kendra Morman (host), Dr. Roxanne Donovan. Missing Tracy Nicole.

The speakers were amazing, and so was our awardee. We honored a local businesswoman for her impact on influencing generations of Atlanta women. I proudly watched as everything unfold. I was touched when the attendees shared bits of their personal stories. I began praising God in the corner because He did it – through him I created a safe and judgment free place where moms felt they could rediscover themselves and lead intentional lives.

I wouldn’t trade the past year for anything. I’m emerging wiser and more resilient, and I look forward to doing it again next year.

 

Dr. Joyce Irons our 2015 Inspirational Award Recipient

32 thoughts on “It Really Is About The Journey . . .

  1. This post is everything. So insightful, so impactful. Thank you for sharing your story of hardship and tenacity while putting together this event. I completely understand where you are coming form, as I have also put together projects and felt what you have felt. I’m so happy to hear that your event was a success, and I look forward to hearing more about your event and from you! Also, I am also in Atlanta and I am a professional videographer as well as a writer. If you ever need someone like me in the future, please feel free to drop me a line! 🙂

    • Thank you, Olivia! I’ve often heard people say, “…if I can do it, then so can you.” It’s true! It’s really true . . .everything is within reach. Everything. I look forward to connecting. I’ll send you a DM. ~ Cece

  2. MJ

    Congratulations lady. You pushed through. Your event looks like it was great. Onward from here and thanks for the reminder on directing your needs and asks to God and not to people or companies.

  3. OMG, what an AWESOME testimony. Everyone looks so happy and beautiful. I too wanna congrats you on facing fear. Tell the truth, isn’t it the BEST feeling in the world??? Teehehe..

    If I may, I want to recommend this book you should check out. It’s called “Fifty Two Shades Of Fearless: Powerful Declarations For The Purpose Driven Woman” This book is soooo good. Written by Tiana Patrice >> http://amzn.to/1PBxYXt << I just got done sharing this same exact resouces with other women. I totally enjoyed each and every chapter. Especially the exercises in between and lessons.. It reminds me of this!! Of YOU!!! I hope you find just as much value from it as I did.

    Now keep on keeping on…Happy Holidays.

  4. mimicutelips

    Congrats on making it to the finish line. I know what its like to worry about pulling off an event. You worry about everything that could possibly go wrong. We forget to think about all the amazing things that could go right.

  5. Cece, you truly are an inspiration to me. thank you for being such an amazing light, and for shining so brilliantly my path is illuminated all the way up here on the other side of the continent at the foot of the Rockies where I live.

    I am inspired.

    Thank you!

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