So when are you going back to fitness boot camp?” my husband asked.
I pretend not to hear him.
“I know you heard me,” he said.
The fitness boot camp I attended met three times a week from the crack of dawn until we couldn’t physically move anymore. I’ve been hitting it hard for about a year, but recently I’ve had more aches and pains than successes. I felt like I needed a break, so I took one.
An extended break.
“I’ll go back after Christmas,” I answered trying to busy myself in the room.
“Last month you said you’ll go back after Thanksgiving.”
“Um…yea you did.”
“Well, when the holidays are over I can focus more on myself,” I felt the lie roll off my tongue and over my lips. “Besides I still walk, it’s not like I’m a total slacker.”
“There won’t ever be a perfect moment, babe,” he warned and left the room.
He was right. I was using the holidays (obviously) as an excuse to avoid working out. I told myself that I was burnout on boot camp and that maybe I needed a change of pace. The problem is that the pace I chose was non-existent and I’m not working out anymore.
But I wonder how many times have we sold ourselves on this perfect state in other areas of our lives. You may have done it before:
“I’ll do __[blank]__ as soon as I __[blank]__.”
“I’ll do [something that I really should be doing for myself] as soon as I [do something that has absolutely nothing to do with what I need to get done].”
Denial, table for two?
So what is it about finding the perfect moment that stops us cold in our tracks? It’s only fair that we ask ourselves if finding the perfect opportunity is genuinely looking for the best option or is it procrastination.
I was a chronic procrastinator . . . it took 10 years for me to wake up and realize how I was hurting myself. After a lot of work I was able to identify what caused my procrastination:
I was afraid of failure.
I was afraid of what people would think of me.
I didn’t think I could do it.
I was afraid of being rejected.
What are you denying yourself because you’re waiting for the perfect moment?
I don’t think perfection is something that we can seek outside of ourselves. If we are whole and perfectly made just as we are, then it’s always the perfect moment.
As human beings, being in this moment right now is the perfect time.
After giving some thought to the aversion to boot camp it wasn’t about the pain, it was about taking on a fitness regime I could do for the rest of my life. I realized that I need to mix things up – who knows maybe I’ll try kick-boxing – it may add to my perfection.
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